MY STATUS

In april i reach 17 in age.And after that i got many huge shocks. My mom got breast cancer and doctor said it takes 6 to 7 months to cure it completely.another shock my mom and dad got is i failed my ANNUAL exam ,school principal said i have to repeat my grade again.i'm loosing my all my confidence,i thought due to using internet or facebook,because previous year i won't learn anything i just did facebooking.so,at home tensions are high,mom regularly go hospital,5 times in week to get radio therapy. So,its 45km away from home it means 90km dialy,hence mom did not capable to do basic works of home.i want to help my mom and dad but everytime i promised myself i'll do,but when need to action i brokened the promise.Today i promised dad i'll attend coaching but fails too,its 11:05am and i haven't bath yet,i'm just using my internet accounts.My inner nasty men is winning and my soul &mind is loosing their confidence. What to do don't know,just need someone's closer advice and huge support.

Its hot holidays

Well,june is there i getting coachings for my high school subjects almost daily.You know guests are fun when they came for just two or three days.Often,its annoying for me because i was busy that time. Obviously when i'm busy i like that work to do. AND yeah ! I'm starting going my library from tomorrow, just after coaching.And on 20 i may be meeting a superstar HARBHAJAN SINGH(cricket bowler).he'll arrive at our town with their team. To play against our town team...i'm in dilemma like my favourite singer SELENA Gomez,whom to support.Go to **beep **beep****beep**** both.I just going there for enjoyment.well loyaly i'll support my town.Mission time ,mission time. I'm on mission finish your sylabuss between holiday. And i like owl city Songs.Superb titles and music of songs with lovely sweet and honey like voice of ADAM YOUNG.THE end

Starting Writting On note book.

Well,stop bloging because i started writting on notebook ,its interesting because we can wright in any way ,from left to right and top to bottom or reverse is also true. TYPING on device make me annoying,cause haven't know how to type fast.Days are going well, haven't use my facebook account since 9th of may.Almost month passed away,but there is not a single day i try to forgot my id.But i control it,when desire is on their high level. Its crazy to do,i want to talk my friends ,but friends didn't gave me any type of support ,when i failed the exam,i can't watch Television, i can't make food for my own,just having permission for playing at sports complex, i playing at least 3 sport daily , table tennis , basket ball and then Badminton.Yet a cricket tournament is going on , whom i hate ,because when our tournament came its not like as spectacular as it.All elders insist on cricket,whom i like to watch but not to play.i said it injury sport.cricketer got good friendship with doctor.

Confessions

1.I was bullied infinite times ,when i was small being fatty
2.Even though i have many friends to say,but in actual i don't have one.Just to say mean ,friends shakes hands well to me ,but they never taken care of my any decision.They never ever try to give me a special place in their life.
3.[sports]I'm sad when selector choosing their team and i'm neglected irritatably.When any of their guy came late,they always choose him.And exploit me.
4.I Can't able to beat the best one.If i will(almost impossible) ,i still remains sad.This shows life without friend.
5.i have best friends but their is age difference problem.I always face it,in every step ,so can't meet them sometimes almost month.
6.THE Most biggest huge and a strange difficulty is ,i can't capable to control my anger.i sometimes i yelled at persons far big than me.

felt shame ,so no more.Its like i'm describing about a devil.(out of order)

A pretty day

Wow ! What a day . a full of suprises and enthusiasm.School went nice except second Period.Today i played three games basket ball ,football and badminton.its strange ! When i was small i like to play cricket only.What a dramatic change.......Got good conversations with ex classmates and my best friends ,i enjoyed almost every second of my speedy day except an minute i heard news about my best's injury ,he haven't go for doctor yet because of exams.its four days passed.i'm amazed he won't care of their injured Ankle.Today i don't have much to say ,i already said its a speedy day.Its fun but i all passage of minutes very fast. Extremly. Hahahaha Have a nice day to all and best wishes to exam attender.

11 May 2012 Friday evening

After long boring school time , i came at home ,Almost 15:15 ,i grab TV remote control. And begin watching. At 17:00 i wore shoes to play out football. Again my brother proved me he is my best friend ever,i asked him weather he want to join me ? And a answer came in sweet voice " anytime brother".First we attacked on basket ,then football and at last badminton,its 19:05 something and we are back home.My legs are became so painfull.....well,in deep asleep i got a beautiful dream .Thats strange ! I'm using kung fu against 4 or 5 unknown enemies in front of school girls.hahahaha ,who i told my friend at school bus ,They laughed too ! Because its not possible at all. Waiting to saturday ! Tomorrow may be fun because its a holiday.But i'm still missing many things a bunch of smiles,a drink of joy and a feel of oneness. At school , at home and when i'm alone.May be god made me to kept alone .who knows what God written in my future Book.Well,i hope for best along fun.

Eroding Heart

At school half time i realise that no one cares about me,while choosing basket ball team members ,i had been ignored so harshly, in a irritable manner.I feel bad because i play daily,never missed any practice.I protest front of all my classmates ,even they are close to me ,they don't want to take me in their team ! Well,somehow i got choosen ,start playing ,no one giving me a single pass.i blocked many opponent players and force them to took mistake.They did so but still no one cares, at last i lost control on anger and start yelling on my team.Match stopped,....every body start blaming on me,like you haven't call us for pass or he is more near the basket ball ring etc etc.Just at the time people going out of court with a pairs.After that 40 minutes of recess over and bell rung. And all gone,i'll march to classroom with revengly thoughts but on another hand i was so sad because 7 out 2's are once my best friend and were the good classmates.They went like i'm a dumb ,unrespected guy.

A gradual control

Its been so long i haven't use facebook ,i feeling very exited.......it was the hardest decision i had ever taken ,i took a lot of effort of parents (obviously a physical effort :( )Now i'm trying to study hard , doing my every work on time , i'm fatty still and growing so i started playing a new game SOCCER a brilliant game suggested by my friend ,so cool sport , i daily drank milk as a order from my mom.....But i still love tea and coffee, its so tasty . So,i rejoin my last year class because i failed in Annual exam.....my best friend taken me at the verge of crying and boom my heart broken.......He is feeling so shame becaming a dude of me. I'm alone yet and i want to talk someone about my pain my feeling but i think its not a right time, sometimes i got physical stresses like "i don't know once i thought about fall out from my school building.oh my god i haven't use facebook i'm soo happy.........a very very bad wishes for facebook from me......they failed me.bye

A gradual control

Its been so long i haven't use facebook ,i feeling very exited.......it was the hardest decision i had ever taken ,i took a lot of effort of parents (obviously a physical effort :( )Now i'm trying to study hard , doing my every work on time , i'm fatty still and growing so i started playing a new game SOCCER a brilliant game suggested by my friend ,so cool sport , i daily drank milk as a order from my mom.....But i still love tea and coffee, its so tasty . So,i rejoin my last year class because i failed in Annual exam.....my best friend taken me at the verge of crying and boom my heart broken.......He is feeling so shame becaming a dude of me. I'm alone yet and i want to talk someone about my pain my feeling but i think its not a right time, sometimes i got physical stresses like "i don't know once i thought about fall out from my school building.oh my god i haven't use facebook i'm soo happy.........a very very bad wishes for facebook from me......they failed me.bye

wow ! i found on facebook

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SUPER BORED LIFE SOMETIMES

When i bored , wants someone to talk to me,nobody was there. AND when i'm busy such as like my exams lots of work came together like guests ,texts , calls and work at home etc. Really life is full of flavoures and big huge suprises. When i was small almost 2 or 3 , i had a girlfriend but now at age 16 empty......still alone . SHE'S shifted their home in else country :( sad.Now,exams are over no work, no stress ,no fun even when i try to fight up my brother for time pass he talked so sweetly , and my mood automatically changed......(= .hmm......in starting facebook for me is like lots of hard work and now boring......so how to pass my valuable time study ? BAD idea.......Reading awesome articles better. NOTHING HAVE to say much, Just want to say..........HAVE A NICE LIFE.....and females are really emotional blackmailers.........specially old one.....but however i still like their talent full talks but boring

Fun with guests children

Oh my god !My home once again full of guests. i don't know anyone except one.How unfortunate i'm there only 1 child to play with us.Well , whenever i thought about cousin's comes here in special occasion , we all play together at home,They train us their famous games they used to play with their friends mostly.i also share our interesting one,they never heard before , like Dum shararat,IPL(on note book), Treasure hunt (interesting one and liked by every one, in this,we hide chocklates, sweets,biscuits,special gifts and most needed is a chit with APPRIL FOOL and person have to find the things to won them. hahaha thats my child hood.etc .The most lovable game of is mine hide and seek,i played like mad with my brother,places are unbelievable under the beneath of car ,some one's friends home,Almost crazy.When my done is there,i said them all bye mom is calling.hahahaha,From when i were kid to till my only and only best friend is my brother.We don't like any outer,cause we take dad serious.

The best movement

Now, my day is going full of enjoy and happiness.....today i'm taking full advantage of my day......Reading like i never read before ;its interesting though.Doing my every work in different way, and yeah i'm describing you all my story i like crazy or else i don't know, you tell ??? All though , i want to schedule my whole day but now i thought , we capable to do alot more without it.Today is a special day for almost 4 or 5 lakhs of people , around the northern india and some other parts of india too. So, i got some guestes.But how sad i even don't know them. I'm alone in home from almost an hour.Dad gone for hearing spiritual words from our's master or Guru.Mom is near by our town at hospital , getting treatment of cancer after a long 8 or 10 hours in operation theatre.And i'm reading Physics so ,knowledgeable at the time at least.Thank God,i'm out of my pressure and not in volume or weight.hahaha So days going well and fit. I like this day & wow the day after world water day is lucky

Why i want to end the world?

i hate chemistry,physics and maths.Love programming but i haven't get any master yet for training of it.My dad is against or they won't have money or may be dad doesn't know about to how to set me in eligible stream............or else.i became lazy then my past, fatty then one of my fellow best friend and even forgot what is hard work, Pressure is high but not enough......i wanna die but when i see my mom dad in bad condition i not able and i also knew i don't have enough courage to die.I love my mom , like my dad and hate my friends who just only with me at good not in worst.Thats shamefull that i'm broken my privacy and secrets but i think there is no other way to slow down tensions. I don't have ideas , don't have anyone to share my privacy. Who understand my situation, when need help every one just giving advices and when advices are essential for me everyone ready for help.Strange na,God please end this world now, i will really thankfull to you or Solve my questions and condition.

Waiting for one

Every time i think about my future,my mind become blank ......than talks of teachers , my parents and especially my best friends revolve around my mind. It make me sick , it pressurise me as mentally but i'm not able to do anything still,its have like you're capability to do anything but you don't have a starter........The thoughts will hurt me deep ,such one thought i really pray to God please don't never let any one suffer in future.Sometimes i think why i born in this world,a world of just animals.Where emotions are only contracted in relatives , parents,lover , friends etc. WHY WHY.......why not unknown person behave like my fellow best friend....Till i haven't get any workable statement .help me and please take out of this condition ,i'm wishing to you all...never let anyone hurt , may be its your enemy........oh i remembered Mahatama Gandhi.Such a great person....i'm desperatly awaiting of a person who put me out from this worst situation.Shall the person will come ??????

Out of order

Werido , Creeper , creep me out .What does these slangs mean. Really to chat we need a Dictionary to understand , The girl doesn't trying to undertand me.i'm tired of chating ,yesterday i talked on facebook atleast 3 hour's because its my first day and Today only some minutes and got some words don't know what does it mean.........oh my good the internet carrier or system get some emotions of Human. AND now blaming on me like a human. Hahahahahaha i'm gonna mad......Don't mood in bloging. Good night. HAVE A NICE LIFE TO YOU ALL

Alone but Growing..........

Look at the tree , he is alone but growing as better then others. And in fresh environment then any other in the world. Now think about a beautiful couple loving them each other , not physically but through eyes , words And only little touch with hands. NOW thinks that one of them is you and other one is the person you loved more than any thing. HOW FEEL , wonderfull yeah i know, Feel more like a soft breeze is flowing in summer......it would be hot (= , And in flash police came there and arrest the male one , said that you kidnapped the girl by force.Heart broken na , yeah i'm telling my feeling , you feel na. SO congratulation you now know how we get pain in love with actually no pain. Feeling like you're in heaven , no one would able to stop you, resist you and even talk to you between you and your lover. AND you fly far far away to an unknown place to unknown........and get mixed up in universe and just loving each other.............

Facebook Chat

The most worst thing came on chat with me is when some stranger said you brother......Even you try hard to impress her.Why girls are so hard minded, don't have they a heart for a sweet boy like me.But on other side what they can do , lot of boys are around them , so they use their easiest way , just say brother. HA little funny , alot hurt . NICE BULLET for a girls.So today i talked atleast 5 to 10 girls only one of them say brother , NICE SCORE good Ankush.Some reply's one and gone away. ONLY one out 10 like me , unfortunately she has a boyfriend. Don't worry i didn't hurt them , now i start to entertain them , i was just checking is she is lying or fooling me because APRIL FOOL day are near.But she is so true said, i like them too much ........but who cares my feelings .From kidss to till i didn't get a true love. HOPE God are trying hard to make a girl for me.Or i'll die before. Thats actually depends upon how could i'm able to bear pain and how to get love from others..............

AFTER RESULT

Today, is the day of result. the worst day ever for me. The history day , the day i broke all my previous records.First time i failed in Annual exam.......As a human responsibility i blame on Facebook .But i know pass and fail is in my hand.but i over use Facebook instead.But now my game is not over but now my dad is in game with me not as partner. They fired many bullets of emotions especially mom helping them reload bullets in machine gun.Actually they are doing right. Now i'm waiting of dad to calm down.But every time dad try to put the fire away and fire starts slowly slowly down off ;my mom blow up air on it with extensively flame able fuel. thats dangerous.........so i lock up my self in toilet with some strong reason.I extremly feel shame when mom say all these things in front of my Brother.......My mom said to me "You did it wrong with us ,do you know you are playing with our respect , reputation, our money , with our feelings."The words really hurt .But what can i do ,nothing

Stupid

You know sometimes i think we are here for just time pass , every one do just stupid ,silly things daily including me and you. Atleast for me.......okay , Answer my QUESTION ? We know every one thinks there is another world after death. Hell or heaven or else. Something related to imagination or else ?.Is really GOD make us or elements......Too many question, i said it stupideness ,A cracked minded advice or thinking.We humans not able to stable at just one stage or thing. For instance , our desires.Does you think we humans are stupid ???? what we get nothing than just a feeling or something to share.......in actual we are just upgrading our versions towards others species, Now you think the writer is crazy. BUT who cares .....hahaha well if you read this you will really get confused. Thats what i want .......hahaha

FW: Rules and Regulations

CAUTION ! Before you start to reading my blog , you are informed that i'm not a good writer and speaker of english.So, be come with all your patience ,because it will help you to digest my words. ITS may so funny or little like fool.
Lets start with a special spicy rules:
rule 1>Don't judge my Language too quickly , its has a many secret things , if you get correct meaning behind it.
rule 2:Make a Letter for your beloved ones because there is risk of heart attack.
rule 3:Most important , I hardly recommmed .Make a Life insurance before you read.
rule 4:Don't get excited to read my rules.
rule 5:Don't skip any rule.
rule 6:take everything positive .okay okay. NOW thats enough i think. .............So i start with my next blog. Yipee i'm super excited about blogs.

unknown

Well ,I'm not a good writter but itry my best .My Name is Deepak, i'm 16 years 205 days some minutes some seconds old.Closer Relatives and Friendscalled me "Ankush".ANKUSH means in Devnagri hindi to Stopsomeone or something, Not a destroyer but name is something means to resist something . i love to play CHESS,Truth and dare, Basket ball. Although i'm not perfect in any of the above.I like to being busy not a cool person and i don't want be.I'm friendly like to talk every person about everything .Yeah ! its mean everyting. i'm very much talk friendly almost.i don't have anybest friend. The only best friend of mine is my little sweetbrother.I always try to put up orshow my feeling , what i need,etc etc blah ! but no one isable to understand it. Because imyself is so0 confused.I'm always think i've too much to say but in results , flop.I agree i hate some girls , whom every one love to talk.Thats differentthing i don't want to show because its a secret and personal as well. I know many secrets of my classmates ;they don't even think.sometimes i seems fool , stupid etc etc . i'm crazy , different from others. i believe in word "Mad heart be brave ".I like meet strangers , but on other side i would try to avoid , but its my habit .if i hate you (too rare), Means my thoughts about you is something different or may be special .if you understood what i'm saying then congrats , its great. Because at last i find a person .