Why i want to end the world?

i hate chemistry,physics and maths.Love programming but i haven't get any master yet for training of it.My dad is against or they won't have money or may be dad doesn't know about to how to set me in eligible stream............or else.i became lazy then my past, fatty then one of my fellow best friend and even forgot what is hard work, Pressure is high but not enough......i wanna die but when i see my mom dad in bad condition i not able and i also knew i don't have enough courage to die.I love my mom , like my dad and hate my friends who just only with me at good not in worst.Thats shamefull that i'm broken my privacy and secrets but i think there is no other way to slow down tensions. I don't have ideas , don't have anyone to share my privacy. Who understand my situation, when need help every one just giving advices and when advices are essential for me everyone ready for help.Strange na,God please end this world now, i will really thankfull to you or Solve my questions and condition.